LAST group training

It's been hardcore practice for the past 2 days. It was the usual class on Tues and Sam allowed me to practice my own stuff towards the end of the class. Thankful as I get to practice the routine for the group solo as well as own solo, but will I make it to the Grand Final? It's still a BIG question mark. But I learnt there is no point of panic as it's only gonna make things worst and best would be to TRY to stay calm and give my best! Blahh.. easy said than done. This is me comforting myself.

I had a great fun during Tues's class, very interactive I would say among my pole mates. Kylie too, was there for replacement class as she was ill last week, so we exchanged opinions about poling and most of all, the competition. Undeniably, we're worried, HA HA!

Learnt this last week, thanks Sam! Finally undertsand this "Bow & Arrow" technique better and get to do it more comfortably this time compared to the first. *Sorry, photo turnt out to be more purple than I thought*

Oh we made great progress during our LAST group training last night - completed the routine for the whole song! I guess when it comes to desperate measures, you're forced to make progress, it's always the hard way eh. Since I've missed 2 group trainings, unintentionally of course, I'm doing my best to keep up with what the others have choreographed and make as little mistakes as I can, aicks! For now, the challenge would be doing a few rounds at site, we all still need to plant that routine deeper in our heads.

Tired yet excited, either of fear or of thrill, I can't believe it's happening in 2 days time *faint*

I wish myself all the best as well as to others! Bottom line, let's give them people a good show!

Hardcore pole practice

I guess after days of not working out and not having much food intake during the recovering period, it takes more strength to get into the poling zone again, body requires more energy and mind requires more focus. Some of us fall sick, we really have to take care, not being fit is the last thing we want for this point of time. And I suppose other mates wish to have more time as much as I do too, but the fact is, WE DON'T! Oh brother~ We gotta pull ourselves together seriously.

It was a hardcore pole practice last night, without proper clothes and shorts, haha.. Only received a sms in the late afternoon that class was cancelled and we were welcome for access and I didn't bring along any comfy clothes for poling. But after talking to Lolita, met her there and Kylie too, I decided to practice. Unfortunately, or should I say luckily, there are no photos of what I was wearing, I look silly having the almost knee-length shorts pulled as high as it can go up my thighs but still a challenge to do certain techniques, especially the sit. Hence, I guess wearing a skirt is not a good idea to perform after all?

Though uncomfortable, I managed to figure out the portion that I've missed out for the solo routine so at least some progress. Other than that, was just repeating the routine until I'm comfortable and familiar with it but still room for adjustment. And not forgetting the solo in the group routine too, I had roughly do it but haven't really do it, so I shall do it during tonight's class. Haha.. confusing statement, losing my mind. And I should pay more attention to this than the solo routine right, as if I'm heading for the Grand Final already, blahhh~

4 days to go, sooo nerve wrecking and driving me nuts! With such lack of practice, how am I suppose to at least give a good performance??? What ever concern there is, this event definitely gets my full best! Our full best I trust! Go go go!!!

Slowly back on my feet

I finally feel more relax, I guess the "poison" has left me, most of it at least. I managed to drag myself to the gym this morning to do some work out since I have not have the energy to move much for the past few days.

So exercise and stretching was good, still little old at the bones, haha.. But I'm fine. It was also the weekly cleaning day, that was another work out too, sweat does make you feel good~ Then off I went for lunch. It was the 1st time I had rice since Thurs! I gotta get more carbs and protein in me, need energy for the upcoming week!

Yvonne was kind enough to invite me to her place for pole practice, Jacklyn was there too. I managed to do a few rounds but after an hour or so, sweaty palms finally got in the way, maybe I'm still not fit enough, or I'm just plain nervous, or it could be the weather too, hmm.. However, at least there are some progress done. Did a few recordings to spot any mistakes that needs to be improved and with their help by giving constructive comments, helps a lot, thanks a bunch guys! I appreciate that.

Next practice, I'll implement some new ideas in, can't wait!

VV Pole Stars Grand Finale Exclusive Invitation

VV Pole Stars Grand Finale Exclusive Invitation..

So mates, if you're interested of attending this event, I'm delighted to invite you and what you need to do is just let me know by 1st June, Monday morning, either through here or FB or mobile, so I can book you an entry as my guests.

The newspaper

I finally managed to eat something proper for dinner but the tummy is still not itself. Sucha wrong timing, I missed my chance for pole access yesterday and tomorrow suppose to be a full pole-day: pole practice in the morning (Thanks Yvonne, for offering), group training in the afternoon and in-house showcase later. I guess I can't make it..

Just read the news in The Star, page 20, about the accident. Sadly, the little girl did not survive, reported to pass away on the spot, I just do not know what to say..

But I guess I should put myself together and get back on my feet soon. Sorry guys for all these sulky news but I just need to let it out.

Have a good weekend ya'll!

Group training #4

Good morning everyone! It's a weak morning for me but I hope all is well..

Here are some pictures taken with the mates during the group training on Wednesday night

And here is a compilation video recorded by Lola, edited by Vee

Regrets..

Received a bad news from Lola last night about Jenny being admitted to the hospital due to appendicitis, oh dear, I hope she recovers well. I have no experience of such but I heard about how painful the recovering period is and I hope hers ain't too severe.

Being physically and mentally drained before, I'm feeling weak today, seen the doctor and claimed to be food poisoning, oh brother~ Not to mention, the time of month old symptoms (not even having it yet) and lightheaded. On top of it all, I would like to share my regrets about something so bad that I never wish it would fall upon someone, just right before my eyes.

Just as I came out from the clinic near my office (I was at work this morning but feeling not quite right after a while), I heard a loud bang, undoubtedly the sound of 2 cars knocking into each other. When my eyes meet the source of the sound, I saw a car at a parking slot, in a reversed position, with most of the back portion was already up to the divider. The woman in the car looks clueless, figuring it was embarassing that she could not even park properly, and still is after she got out of the car to check the damage of the car she knocked next to hers.

Something caught my eyes - a little figure underneath the car, to be exact, in between the driver's side tyre and the divider. The next thing I heard, a guy nearby shouted "Baby!" and that's when I confirmed myself that what I saw is true, it's a little girl! And that's also when the woman notice that it's her daughter (so I figured), she started screaming while I rush to car to see what I can help and other 8-10 men, they lift the car and someone move the little girl away from there.

My view was blocked by the men so I didn't see the condition of the little girl. I notice everyone was stunned and I quickly ran back to the clinic to ask them to call the ambulance and I was suggested to get someone to drive her straight to the hospital. I ran out and asked a man to get a car or if knows anyone who has a car nearby to help but all they ever said to me is that "She's not moving anymore and probably won't make it, that accident probably crush her skull". I ran back to the clinic trying to comprehend what to do next, the doctor was reporting the accident via phone, to the hospital I reckoned. I told her that I couldn't get any help, she kept asking me to find help cause the ambulance probably will take a while to arrive. I ran out again asking for help but all the people standing/ lingering around the area, about 5 of them are calling the ambulance, no one offers help. I was devastated and spiritually drained. I stood there as helplessly as the woman did, kneeling at the side of her daughter, crying and screaming away.

I walked away, back to the office few blocks away, feeling tired from my physical condition and numb from what I just encountered. I briefly told my boss what happened and I packed my stuff to head home to rest, that should already be 30mins after the encounter. I passed 1 street away from the accident site, the usual way to get out of my working area, and I saw that the ambulance just arrived.

I can't describe how I feel but I definitely regret for not being strong will enough to overcome the pain that I'm having and get my car to drive them to the hospital, the little girl could have been saved, 1 min makes a lot of difference whether the victim could make it, what's more 30mins.

When I got home, I finally able to nap to overcome the physical pain but I'm emotionally troubled by the accident that it's even playing in my head while I nap. I woke up in tears feeling worst than ever as though I'm in the woman's shoes, I should have, I could have.. I'm sorry. All I hope now that the little girl still has the chance to survive and I keep wondering what's her condition and the woman (the mother), she must feel.. devastated, that's even a word understated.

Not sure how well I can overcome this "trauma" and regrets.. Hoping for nothing else but the best for her..